What an Arse!

Published January 15, 2015 by Harri

I made an ass of myself. Nothing new I know. So, after spending the morning feeling sick with nerves and butterflies in my damn stomach, my sister and I (she came for moral support) went to the gym and spoke to the girls on the desk. Asked them a few questions, got chatting, it didn’t help my damn nerves. So we go upstairs to the gym suite and walk into the gym. I am the biggest one in there. Easily. The gym dude came to speak to us and then went to find the bloke I was meant to be seeing.

Then we find out that I was meant to be there at 1030, not 1130. I am an hour late… I was mortified. I hate being late. For anything. I really do. It’s a massive bugbear of mine. So anyway, we are standing there and I am gutted. There is still a chance that I have blown it. I am hoping to fuck I haven’t spoilt my chances of getting on the scheme.  I am currently awaiting to find out whether I am actually able to go back to it. I have been told to come back on Tuesday at 1030am, but will be there at 1015am.

Anyway, after apologising profusely to my sister for dragging her out with me, I didn’t want to waste the opportunity we had. I suggested that we go for a walk around the local rugby/football pitches as a way to exercise and not waste the day.

First off, we aimed for 20 minutes of brisk walking, when we hit 20 minutes, I aimed for 2 laps, when I had done 2 laps, I pushed for 3 laps. I did it. I walked 1.64 miles, in 36 minutes and 37 seconds. It’s the furthest I have walked in a long long time.

My mental health has robbed me of my fitness, my healthy weight and my life. I holed up in the house sleeping and comfort eating my way to a ridiculous weight.

This path that I am on now, is going to be a bloody long hard road and I know it is. I have a lot to lose, but I know I can and will do it.

So yeah, thought I would let you know that I am a complete prat.

 

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2 comments on “What an Arse!

  • You never fail to amaze me with how much you always remind me of me. I, too, just joined a gym, overweight and knowing it needs to change. I’m eager to follow your progress and see how it relates.
    It’s great that you are doing something for you. Keep it up and keep loving yourself.

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