So a few months ago, I started writing to some people. The old fashioned way. Letters and envelopes. Snail mail.
It’s so relaxing but it’s addictive too. The anticipation of waiting for a letter to come through the post is almost unbearable, but in a good kind of way. That is until you don’t get a response from anyone. Then it’s just crushing, but I know I am not everyone’s cup of tea. So, I am getting used to that bit, rejection hurts. I won’t lie to you. It’s also compounded by the BPD, which means I have a fear of driving people away. Go figure.
Anyway, I have been writing to a few people and hope that they will reply and keep replying to me. The whole thing has given me excitement and enjoyment. Just reading letters that other people have taken the time to write and send to me, it’s humbling. It also gives me something to focus on. I know there is mail on it’s way from me and I know there is mail from all over on it’s way to me. It’s a nice feeling. Almost like being wanted. I don’t know how many people actually enjoy my semi-narcissistic ramblings but it’s nice to spend the time decorating the letters. Actually concentrating on my handwriting and making it neat (I use a fountain pen, as it seems to be the best thing for me to use).
So whilst I have been writing to various people around the world, I have learnt a few things.
- Writing the first letter is always awkward as hell.
- I can’t draw for shit.
- I need more stickers, but can’t afford them at the moment and would rather pay for postage, so will stick to drawing crap doodles.
- Postage isn’t as expensive as I thought. £1.33 to send a letter to the USA!
- My handwriting looks better on the envelope than it does in the letter.
- I worry way too much about the post getting to where it needs to go.
- It’s quite cathartic writing about the positive things in my life. Reaffirming what I do have.
- I get super excited when a letter lands on my door mat (although I don’t have a doormat, but you know what I mean!)
- I’d like to practise my drawing skills, but am scared people will think they are terrible.
So yeah, I think that’s it. I love snail mail. I really do. It’s exciting and fun. I have a pen friend in Italy, a few in the USA, one in the UK, one on the Jersey Channel Islands, one in The Netherlands and I think that’s it.
Try it. Join a snail mail group on Facebook (I did it that way), get a general feel for a person before you give out your address or P.O. Box number and go from there. It’s a hobby that I truly enjoy as I really do like finding out about other people and their lives in other countries. How different is it from mine?
Anyway, I have to go and get ready for work. Le sigh!